The Things I Carry

I carry a baby blue digital watch around my left wrist because time is crucial for me. So many deadlines. On my right wrist I carry a ponytail holder or two so that I am prepared to put my hair up when the time is necessary. A lot of the time I carry a bandana tied to one of the belt loops on my jeans if it's not already on my head to hide the frizzy hair, shelter it from the rain, or just to match my outfit.
Around my torso I carry a messenger purse to keep the most important things close. In this purse I keep my cellular phone so I can communicate without wasting two quarters in some machine. I keep my glasses in my purse to improve my vision of things I want to see. I only wear my glasses when they are necessary to identify people and things. I carry my house keys on a keychain with a small graduation teddy bear on it. I carry my wallet in my purse though I mostly remains rid of cash. In my wallet I carry my UH cougar one card and my driver's license though I don't have a car and rarely ever drive. In the zip part of my wallet is wear I keep change. I usually carry 1 quarter, 1 dime, 1 nickel, and 1 penny because almost every day for lunch I have a 20. oz angel smoothie from Smoothie King ; it costs $3.41 and I like to carry exact change. Even if I don't have $3.41, I always make sure to carry some pennies because I don't like wasting two quarters on something that costs 34 cents. I carry in my purse a bottle of Aleve with 7 tablets left and a bottle of Advil with 12 tablets left due to my problems with headaches and migraines and "everythingelseaches." The Aleve bottle always has an odd number of tablets because I usually only take one at a time, while I usually take 2 Advil at a time. I carry an almost-empty bottle of non-perfumed lotion in im my purse just in case my skin gets dry while I also carry 2.25 oz of deodorant to make sure that I stay dry and don't smell bad.
I carry at least one piece of gum to make sure I don't offend anybody with my breath. I've always carried a lot of things for my lips to moisturize and color them. It used to be ten lipsticks, glosses, and chapsticks...all completely different, but now there are seven. I also carry a comb just in case my hair needs fixing. I carry two pencils and two pens in my purse for while I am in class.
On my right shoulder I carry a large fire-engine red messenger bag. In the small part of that bag I carry more pencils and pens, highlighters, and a pencil sharpener. Int he larger part I keep my folder, my assignment journal, and my textbooks for whatever classes I have on a particular day.
With my physical form I carry my ancestry through the pigment of my skin, the texture of my hair, and the geometry of my features. I carry the burden of being the "smart one,"the one who always does academically well. I carry the burden of being the "baby" and being described as spoiled and feeble. I carry the stress of my dysfunctional family. I carry the depression brought about by the memories I carry in the back of my mind. I carry overbearing emotions to be unpacked only when alone. Unfortunately, I sometimes carry pessimism.
I carry myself in the way that I act, dress, and in the way that I treat others. I carry respect for myself, but much more for others. I'm always fully dressed because I carry myself like a lady. I carry kindness to everyone and generosity to those in need when I can.
Though I sometimes carry stress, depression, overbearing emotions, and pessimism, I still manage to carry on. I get motivation whether it is from myself or my older sister and I carry on. Even when I'm not motivated, I carry on. For example, I did not really want to go to college, but I'm here because it's a goal I have to accomplish. Everyday I mark through another day on my calendar and carry on.
I carry what is necessary, I carry myself with kindness, and though I sometimes carry negative things, I somehow manage to carry on.



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